Today marks 8months since our fire. I was hoping to have news of construction beginning but I don't :( and I didn't even take the time to find out why. My attitude has shifted from a position of questioning' "why not, how much longer?" to "I'm not surprised" Perhaps it's weather (did I mention it's raining, so much for all the mold being dried away) or perhaps it's other life circumstances that are contributing to my mood but I am beginning to move from eager expectation to dread of the coming months.
Yesterday I was in Target and saw some Nutcrackers on an end cap. My stomach dropped. We had quite a Nutcracker collection that was started by my now deceased grandfather when Aidan was a baby. Sure, I know how many we had and could certainly go to a store and buy the same amount in about the same sizes but one of my highlights of decorating for the holiday's was pulling them out, reminiscing about when we got each one, who had given it to us or why we purchased it. So, sure, they can be repurchased, but they can never be replaced. I know that isn't what Christmas is supposed to be about but I still feel it's a loss worth mourning and I worry the many other precious Christmas items that burned will be as well. Is that what I have to look forward to, months of mourning - ick!
I keep thinking I need to have a look at Job (the person/book, not the noun) I think of all he lost and how God replaced it; "blessing the latter part of his life even more than the first". Perhaps that will make me feel more encouraged...it certainly can't hurt.
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Just keep looking "up". God will bless you through this and after this. It's a promise.
ReplyDeleteHold onto the promises of God's Word and it will help you. It won't make it all "go away" like a bad dream, but it will help you. I will continue to pray for you, my friend!