Looking Up

I wish I had something more to report now, it's been two weeks since my last post but we are still waiting, and our house is sitting, untouched. Funny, yesterday Alyssa's friends' mom asked if we were "all settled" now. The timing seemed ironic to me since at that moment I was washing some sooty items that had been sitting in the garage here preventing me from parking inside - resulting in a break-in of my car and loss of an iPod :( - I wondered if we would ever be settled and without really thinking about it I said "depends on what you mean by settled", "Moved back into your house" was her reply. Obviously she had no idea the extent of the damage the fire had done. From her perspective enough time had passed, and we should be all back to normal, and isn't everything really a matter of perspective?

At the rate we are going, I am beginning to wonder if we will ever be moved back in, in fact it's hard to imagine our house being rebuilt when it doesn't seem like the demo is ever going to be complete. I am heavy hearted. I lost a friend toa battle with cancer today, and another family that is dear to us is waging their own war with the same type of cancer right now, in fact they are at the hospital as I type - in ICU recovery. I have friends that have lost children and marriages, family members and loved ones, it's been quite a year and so it has been easier for me to keep my perspective during this frustrating time.

What I wish (beyond the obvious that there was no death, disease or destruction of relationships) is that my perspective wasn't so dependant on what was going on around me, or how it could be worse. But that my eyes were constantly fixed, looking up towards the heavenly realms, only seeing the good and true and pure (though I'm not sure they exist in the insurance industry- lol) in every situation, without it being relative to another.

So that's where I am now, I have been working on patience, perseverance, and endurance, these past few months, now I am adding perspective, trying to look up rather than around...I may need a little more help with this one ;)